• I just read the typos of my comments....lol. I'm using my thumb on my phone, so, I guess that's to be expected. Anyway, happy heavenly Christmas, Venessa. I miss you lots! I know I will see you again one day. I know that you knew I loved you and always will.

Been thinking of me beautiful sister , Venessa. I remember the Christmas she gave me antique China tea set... actually it was for Sasha. I couldn't believe she gave me something so nice.... are you sure? I said... this is a collectible. She said softly, in her sweet and shy manner, yes. Happy Heavenly Christmas Venessa.... love you always.... until we meet again.

I had a dream about you last night. You came back and we were so happy to see you again! I was so excited and nervous telling you about all the things that have happened in your absence and you acted so nonchalant like you had just come back from the store or something. I'm really glad you visited me in my dream. It was like old times again and it felt so real. When I woke up, I felt like you were still with me. My best friend, I can't wait to dream about you again. I love you mom.

I miss you every day. I woke up in the middle of the night and cried for an hour because I realized you are really gone. Losing you has been a great fear of mine since childhood but deep down I know you're still with me and don't want me to be sad. Once you’re forced to face your biggest fears it feels like nothing else can hurt you anymore. I look forward to the day we are reunited in heaven. I didn't just lose a mother, but I feel like I lost a sister and a best friend. Give grandma a big hug for me. I love you both so very much.

Don't be afraid, Danielle. Your mom will alwa love you. When grandma got sick in 2009, I thought she was going to die. I was so afraid. She passed away in 2022 instead.,I had precious years spent with her. It was Harold that died suddenly in 2009. The first thing I thought about every morning was Harold died. It was so shocking, devastating. I look back and remember the good times Venessa and I spent together. She's in better place, now and I know she doesn't want you to be afraid. Don't be afraid, Danielle, your mom will always love you... she'll always love Rachel.

I wish you were still here. I just feel so lost and scared without you in the world. Sometimes I can't believe this is real, like it's some bad dream and I'm hoping I'll wake up soon. I will never stop thinking about you. I love you so much, mom.

I spent a lot of time with both Venessa and Cheryl when we were kids. They were older than me and I always thought they were so cool.

I remember the family coming out to visit for weekends in Petersfield, where we’d swim and boat and have bonfires on the beach. I remember going with my sister, Jocelyne, Cheryl, and Venessa in my uncle Allan’s car to get banana splits.

Sadly, things changed when I was around seven. I’m still not sure what happened, exactly, but one Christmas, they just weren’t there. And I never saw any of them (except uncle Allan) again.

Over the years I tried a few times to find my cousins on social media but had no luck until I managed to connect with Cheryl just recently. I wish I’d had a chance to reconnect with your mom as well. She sounds like a wonderful person.

My sincere sympathy on your tremendous loss.

Carmen

My beautiful sister... it will always break my heart how we departed ways when were at odds with each other. At the back of my mind, I always thought we would make up again; this was just one of those arguments. Since you passed away, I can't stop thinking about you. In our childhood, we were very close, and as we became adults, we had our life to lead; still, we remained close. It hurt me to know that you were getting your masters when you suddenly got ill. I was proud of what you were accomplishing because I remember you had to withdraw from your studies in the 90's due to family issues. You left so suddenly and I know I will see you again on the other side. I pray and hope your last few deys on earth were peaceful. Until we meet again, love you always.

We had so many plans and hopes for the future. I was ready to spend the rest of my life taking care of you if you needed it. I love you so very much, mom. I'm heartbroken about what happened.

I love you and think of you every day 🩷