I miss you so much dad, I never got to tell you how much you mean to me and how much I love you and that I was so lucky to have you in my life. It's almost been three years now and it seems like I miss you more every single day. I just want to tell you how im doing and that I miss u. there's not a single day when I don't think about u, I know it's selfish but I'm so angry and I'm writing this because I don't know what else to do. I need to let this feeling go but I don't want to because I'm afraid if i dont feel this anymore than you'll really be gone. There was so much pain in your life and I just wish I could have helped u through it. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you when you needed me but I promise I will always be there for uncle nick because he needs me as much as you did. I will always love u and I will never forget that you were such a good man through all the shit we went through I never realized how much pain u were in and that is something I will live with forever. I miss u dad and I hope that your still here with me right now in one way or another because there's so much that's happened that I wish you could be here for.